Malia Podcast – Episode1 – Introduction

I woke up inspired today… Today is the day I stop procrastinating and do the thing I keep talking about and then talking myself out of. We often let “perfect” get in the way of starting anything in the first place. There is no better time than the present and no better place to start than the beginning.

My Goals for my podcast:

I want to interact with people of all backgrounds, ethnicities and career paths. I want to find out that makes them tick, what they think and why, who they are, how they got there and where they want to go. I love humans. 

I want to seek the truth – I’m aware I only have my perception but we all contribute to finding the “truth”. Sometimes this means being wrong and sometimes it means finding middle ground. Only together can we find symbiosis. 

I’m curios. I want to discuss the past, present & future of humanity. Where did we start and what has happened along the way. Where do we want to go. 

I want to empower people. I came from a rough childhood and I pride myself in overcoming my circumstances. Like most people, I’ve had my hardships and I’ve hit rock bottom. I want people to know they aren’t alone and they can overcome anything they put their mind & heart into. I want to interview people who have accomplished the unthinkable and find out what drives them.

I also want to spread awareness and discuss ideas. “Small minds discuss people, average minds discuss events and brilliant minds discuss ideas”. 

I want to be vulnerable. 

Lastly, I wanna have fun!!  

Why Now? 

I’ve always wanted to write an autobiography. I’ve journaled since I was 12 and have come a long way. I love to write and feel like this is a good step to formatting my ideas. Since I was a little girl I had a curiosity about life – I remember thinking “If they can do it, why can’t I?” This may be sloppy as I learn – I don’t know how to edit, I don’t know what’s going to work, I don’t know if anyone will even care to listen but I feel in my gut that I need to try.  

I find myself increasingly frustrated with the media. Both mainstream and social. It makes me feel more separated from my community due to the current climate of things and I want to reconnect. I want to provide a platform for average people to unite. We can and will disagree but how do we find balance and growth. 

About me

  • Childhood & Overcoming circumstances
  • My career & education background
  • What drives me
  • Hobbies & passions
  • Who inspires me

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The Paradox of Mr. & Mrs. Gates

There is so much information on social media that it can feel mentally & emotionally crippling to keep up. We are in the middle of a global pandemic and thousands of people are dying each week. Knowing what to expect is like chasing a moving target! I was beginning to think I was going crazy so I decided to do my own research and make up my own mind. I started recognizing patterns within the current official narrative, history and well, Mr. Bill Gates.

During my research I came across Event 201 held in New York City on Friday October 18th 2019. “Event 201 was a 3.5-hour pandemic tabletop exercise that simulated a series of dramatic, scenario-based facilitated discussions, confronting difficult, true-to-life dilemmas associated with response to a hypothetical, but scientifically plausible, pandemic. 15 global business, government, and public health leaders were players in the simulation exercise that highlighted unresolved real-world policy and economic issues that could be solved with sufficient political will, financial investment, and attention now and in the future”.

I wondered, “Why did world leaders meet in October 2019”?

The Johns Hopkins Center for Health Security, World Economic Forum, and Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation jointly propose the recommendations of what to do if a pandemic happens. Recordings of the exercise can be found here.

What does a computer geek have to do with a pandemic and why is he willing to lose millions of dollars to fight this disease? For starters, he has stated several times that the world is overpopulated. He thinks it needs to be reduced by forms of contraception, namely in Africa & impoverished countries where women average 6-7 children. 

Interview with Bill Gates August 2012

Here is a little history on imperialist views on over population and how The Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation is connected: (Written August 26th 2019 by Jacob Levich @ Medium.com) 

When Bill has talked so much about the need for population control, I wondered why is he at the forefront of saving lives during this pandemic? Here is an idea. (Published Jan 17 2019 by Catherine Clifford @ cnbc.com).

In 2008 Gates stepped down as Microsoft CEO in order to pursue his main focus, philanthropy. He remained on the Microsoft board of directors. Fast forward to March 13th 2020, following the announcement of a global pandemic on March 11th 2020, he stepped down from the board of directors at Microsoft to focus more attention on his philanthropic initiatives. Here is an article on the paradigm between the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation and it’s charitable donations. 

Paradoxes aside, Gates appears to be an altruistic, charitable philanthropist and has gained a lot of public & political support during this pandemic. He seems to even be a prophet to some. Listen to his TED Talk from 2015 warning us of a global pandemic.

Since starting the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation in 2002, his donation paper trail includes:

Vaccine Industry

Biotech Companies

Center of Disease Control (CDC)

World Health Organization

Education: “The findings revive questions about whether the country is well-served when America’s wealthiest citizens choose pet projects and fund them so generously that public institutions, policy and money follow — even if those projects are not grounded in sound research”.

Agriculture & GMO research: “GMO proponents like to focus on possible future uses of genetic engineering technology, while downplaying, ignoring or denying the risks. They often try to marginalize critics who raise concerns as uninformed or anti-science; or, as Gates did, they suggest a false choice that countries must accept GMOs if they want “to let their people have enough to eat.” These corporations have also spent hundreds of million dollars on public relations efforts to promote industrial-scale, chemical-intensive, GMO agriculture as the answer to world hunger”.

Climate Change “It’s frustrating to me when I see Bill Gates held up as this hero of climate change when you know that he’s benefitting from all of these investments that are directly contributing to climate change,” said Justin Mikulka, a contributor to the climate outlet Desmog and author of Bomb Trains

Information Exchange AKA Media: “To garner attention for the issues it cares about, the foundation has invested millions in training programs for journalists. It funds research on the most effective ways to craft media messages. Gates-backed think tanks turn out media fact sheets and newspaper opinion pieces. Magazines and scientific journals get Gates money to publish research and articles. Experts coached in Gates-funded programs write columns that appear in media outlets from The New York Times to The Huffington Post, while digital portals blur the line between journalism and spin”.

You might think at this point that Gates has a Monopoly over the world. Speaking of Monopoly, his company Microsoft was sued by the United States Government in 1998 and the European Government in 2004 for breaking antitrust laws AKA causing a “monopoly” on the future of the internet AKA information exchange. 

What is informed consent? Informed Consent is permission granted in the knowledge of the possible consequences, typically that which is given by a patient to a doctor for treatment with full knowledge of the possible risks and benefits.

What is bodily autonomy? Bodily autonomy is defined as the right to self governance over one’s own body without external influence or coercion. It is generally considered to be a fundamental human right. … Bodily autonomy is also applicable to each individual’s right to choose family planning options.

How much does the average vaccine cost?

How many vaccines does Bill Gates intend to manufacture & distribute?

What is 7,000,000,000 x appx $100?

In conclusion: I have no conclusion. Make up your own damn mind! 

If you want to know the history of vaccines and make your own informed decision about MR. Gates’ “life saving” vaccine initiatives, I recommend this book: http://www.vaccineepidemic.com/


A Note about the author: I am not a conspiracy theorist, I just like to think freely & ask questions. I support *Informed Consent* for ALL medical procedures. I support the right to bodily autonomy. I believe in science. I am not religious but I am spiritual. I do not have a political affiliate nor do I want one. I think Covid-19 is real. I enjoy long walks on the beach & deep discussions about philosophy, nutrition, art and music.

Love & Light

Steve JObs



Life of a Qooala Beer

There are a lot of things that I would like to write about. My life has been anything but ordinary or dull. My childhood, for one, is an area I struggle opening up about because it’s not anything most people want to hear nor believe. In my heart I know that when I finally do make words it will help others, however it will take some time to build up the courage to share with the world as it hits so close to home. For now, let me start out with a question that a lot of people ask me: What do I actually “do”? I never know what to say and my response changes depending on who I am talking to. What do I love to do? I am an event producer and performer. I enjoy DJing, I am studying in Aerial Silks and most recently started taking electronic music production lessons. My passion lies in orchestrating grand scale events. My most notable and memorable event was a 4 day music and arts “festival” in a 3 story mansion on the edge of Lookout mountain. Although the concept was my brain child, this was a highly collaborative event that I could not have done without the support of my community.


I specialize in boutique events, however I originally started hosting small potlucks and volunteering for music festivals & events about 7 years ago. I was 28 when I finally realized my passion and since then have done everything I can to learn about the entertainment industry. Most recently I took my vision of offering luxurious spaces for artists and staff of Envision to Costa Rica for my first international “Staycation”.

Costa Rica Promo Video – Videographer Credit Justin Michael – Global Travel Video

I don’t make money as an artist and often times give my time and talent away for free, or rather for the love ❤ However I recently landed a side job working for Menage Life as the Production Manager for a monthly Lifestyle party in a local 6 acre Manor.


Still, that is only a side job and I need a “grown up job” to actually pay the bills. During the week days I take care of a wonderful couple and their beautiful home. I do the shopping, make sure the house is adequately stocked, care for the puppies, meet with contractors and ultimately insure the property is a well oiled machine. My “office” is an incredible 8k square foot home with retractable windows, a pool, hot tub and various gadgets and appliances that are much smarter than me. I also host their annual Pride Pool party alongside holiday parties and occasional benefits. It often doesn’t feel like a job but rather that I am taking care of my family. In addition I take on large projects and lead teams of people in such things as estate sales, moving, packing and sorting peoples’ lives.

BankerHow did I land such an amazing job, you ask? The answer is #craigslist. I didn’t know someone, nor did I get “lucky” however I did take a leap of faith and uprooted my career in the financial industry.

Before I found this line of work, I worked at a bank for 8 years. It was a stable job that taught me a lot about customer service, how to talk to people, how to sell and how to run a multimillion dollar business. It provided me and my family benefits and gave me an opportunity to grow as a young adult. I am a high school drop out, you see and before I got a job at the bank I didn’t even have my GED. I had a young son and knew that I needed to get a real job if I was to make something of myself. The bank was fun for a few years because I was really good at it and moved up the ladder quickly. However once I became a store manager things began to shift. I started seeing the truth about the financial industry and how one sided it was. Working for a money hungry, life sucking and fiscally selfish company began to drain my soul. But they kept giving me little increases in pay & benefits, keeping me just comfortable enough to be complacent. I spent my last 2 years in mental agony. I remember waking up every morning being so physically exhausted and looking in the mirror thinking “what if I just don’t go in?”. Then I would drive to work, spend an hour in rush hour traffic (not to mention the hour drive home, also in rush hour traffic), pay $18 to park my car downtown and then spend the first hour of work in a fluorescent lit room talking about how many credit cards we sold the day before and what we were going to do to sell more today. When the bank doors opened I would watch the clock slowly tick and daydream about what I would be doing if I wasn’t there.. “Yoga, music, art, play outside in the sun, spend time with my kids… SO many things in life to enjoy that I have no time for…” But then another hour would pass and I would think, “Welp, there is another $26 in my pocket so I guess I’ll stay.”

I tried to walk out once. I was so aggravated with something so trivial that I can’t even remember anymore, and I just walked right out without telling anyone, went to the bar next door and ordered a beer. Then I calmed down and came to my senses. I was a mother and head of the household, I couldn’t just quit my job. So I went back and continued to suffer. It wasn’t until I began studying for my Series 7 to become a Licensed Banker that the Universe stepped in. Well, the Universe and my total lack of giving a F***. It was a 5 week program and they allowed me to study from a dark basement in the cash register building, outside of my branch. After a week of driving downtown I realized nobody was checking up on me and I could access the study site from home so I decided to start staying at home each day. I would study, as was expected of me but by the end of the day I would get the chapter 12 which was the State Law section and I would pass over it with glazed eyes and a short attention span. When I went to take the test, I passed!! The first 11 chapters anyway but what they didn’t tell me was that the State Law exam was it’s own separate test consisting of only 20 questions, 40% of which I got wrong. So ultimately, I failed. I called my District Manager to inform him and he said that I would have to return to the branch the next day and continue my normal tasks as I waited a few months for the next testing opportunity. My heart sank and I went silent. After a long pause I said “I am not coming in tomorrow”.. He agreed that I could take the weekend off to think and come back on Monday. Over the weekend I thought long and hard about what would happen if I didn’t go back, how would I survive? What would I do? I don’t have an education and maybe only a few hundred dollars in savings. I mean, I have a 401k but I don’t want to dig into that…. But the dread I felt just thinking of going back was too much to bare. On Monday I called Human Resources and asked them what the longest leave of absence was, which was 3 months. I took it and figured that in 3 months if I was broke and lost, I would be able to go back. After 3 months of “fun-employment”, I still couldn’t bring myself to go back so I officially resigned.

CrewI spent the summer working on projects with my Sound Crew and helping their events and at festivals. I somehow knew that it would all be ok and that I had to believe in myself and the Universe. I felt that in order to attract the job that I wanted I would need to present myself to the world in a way that was aligning. So I dyed my hair bright colors, which was never allowed a the bank, and I moved all of my bank attire out of my closet and only left costumes and clothes that made me feel like me in my room. I ordered business cards with my event background and altered my resume so the front page included my event experience, community service and artistic accomplishments and the next pages were my corporate banking and service industry experience. My mission statement was (and still is): To invest in work that I am both passionate about and is worthy of my time and talent. One that bridges the gap between my artistic goals and unique skill set. 

I didn’t work for 9 months and went $22k in debt. I drained my savings and maxed out all my credit cards. I had to get a roommate to help pay rent and applied for Medicaid and food stamps. It was the first time since childhood that I fell to that level of poverty. I worked a few side gigs and even got a bartending job temporarily.. But there was very little I could find that was worth my time. I didn’t want another corporate job and I was not interested in falling back into the service industry. I knew that if I was going to uproot my well paying job in the financial industry that it better be worth it. So I was patient and picky. I logged onto Craigslist every day and hit refresh, refresh, refresh…. Until one day I logged on and saw “Seeking gay friendly personal assistant to do A. B. and C… (Basic household tasks that I was more than capable of)… and at the very bottom it said D. Organize and host 4-5 grand parties per year.

BINGO. That was the sentence that got me.

BlueWhen I met my clients I had blue hair. We sat and talked casually for about an hour. They asked me if I was comfortable with their lifestyle and I said “Are you comfortable with my hair?”. It was a match made in heaven! Five years have passed and I am proud to say that I have almost paid off my debt, I make more money than I did at the bank, I work half as long (and choose my own hours, avoiding rush hour like the plague) and as an independent contractor I am able to deduct a lot of income, thus paying less in taxes. The BEST part is that with this extra time not spent in traffic and the energy I have saved not working 50 hours a week, I am able to have a real life.

I still discipline myself to wake up early so I can make it to the gym before work but I enjoy what I do now and have the energy to do other things after work and on the weekends. I have the freedom and mental capacity to listen to podcasts, audiobooks or music while I work and continue expanding my knowledge and business. I make enough money to pay my bills and pursue my passions. I get off work in time to pick up my kids from school and cook them nice dinners.

I am not saying all of this to brag but rather to give you hope and tell you that it IS possible to live a life that you love and make money to thrive. I tell you this because I know so many people who work at a dead end job living paycheck to paycheck, chasing the “American Dream” and getting nowhere. Working for people you don’t like doing things that don’t interest you. And I call bullshit. I will tell you getting to where I am was not easy. I had very little growing up and got my first job picking weeds and cleaning houses when I was 12. I have been working for nearly 2/3rds of my life and have never been ok with settling or being average. I always wanted to be the best at what I did so I worked harder and longer than most of my peers. I don’t expect everyone to be as much of a workaholic as me but I *do* believe that we all deserve to create a lifestyle that nourishes our soul. It’s not easy and I still struggle. I am not totally free from debt and sometimes wonder if I am actually getting anywhere. I have sacrificed a lot and taken many chances in my life & career. It is not easy, but it *is* worth it. I am a true believer in the Universe and that if you believe in it, and in yourself, and you take the steps to show that you are serious, the Universe will respond. The pathway will clear.

“Faith is taking the first step without seeing the stairwell.” – Martin Luther King, Jr.

Steve Job



The “Art of Living”

A master in the art of living draws no sharp distinction between his work and his play; his labor and his leisure; his mind and his body; his education and his recreation. He hardly knows which is which. He simply pursues his vision of excellence through whatever he is doing, and leaves others to determine whether he is working or playing. To himself, he always appears to be doing both.”
— Lawrence Pearsall Jacks